in the early 1990's when everything the writer thought about yielded to either the love or the quantum perspective the notion of the beginningless presented itself this impenetrable facet of reality wouldn't take on a form that a mind could work on the situation didn't change until in 200?, in a moment of idling thinking, a disturbinging picture of a trapped, mere speck of consciousness, at the very edge of reality presented itself the feelings it produced began to be accompanied with thought and as the thought started to produce an understanding the words "shed no tears" entered the writer's conscious the unimaginably bad has been experienced by the lover and a persons worst fears as to what the worst thing that can happen is has already happened and cannot be experienced again the beginningless and all of your worst fears have gone with it what's left is the endless the endless is describable... it is the overwhelming freedom that accompanies a beings ability to exercise their free will to act in infinity, an increasingly exhilarating, pluralistic, colour-rich, pleasure-filled fantasy-reality, and it is ours (courtesy of the lover) until then... if you want endless contemplation or the ultimate intellectual challenge... try thinking about the beginningless and endless